I won two race entries for Melissa’s Road Race (10k) from Impact magazine!! Yay! One for me and one for Kim!! Awesome, awesome (free) publication that I’ve read without missing a page since I moved to Calgary.
Not only am I going to run it, I would like to run it well. Therefore, it’s time to train. I wrote out my plan…what runs I will do on what days as I prepare for the race day. I am a planner, so this part is always very motivating for me. I have a neat little plan with a red sharpie to ‘X’ out the training as I complete it. So exciting, entirely motivating…a great goal to chip away at this summer.
But then it came time to run…on day 3 of my plan.
Oh MY GOODNESS…I need to be dramatic here as it felt Very. Dramatic. A waxing appointment would have been more appealing to me than a run, and I’m not talking eyebrows. It was hot, I was tired, I was in a baaad mood. Not surprising was how quickly my inner critic jumped in to spread nastiness through my head…saying things like:
“really, you are giving up already? It’s day 3.”
“this is just like you not to follow through.”
As I sat there, letting that ego voice in my head chew me up, feeling ashamed and writing off the run, a quiet voice said “force it”… “force yourself into those sneakers and hit the road. You can DO this.”
Force is defined in one way as “strength or energy as an attribute of physical action or movement.”
I needed to pull myself up to find that strength or energy.
I needed to turn my tough love switch to ON.
I hauled myself up the stairs, put on my running gear (pouting the whole time), pushed myself to the front door and forced my fingers to tie my runners, and then…I ran. I wish I could tell you it was the run of my life and the heavens opened and I’ll never bail on a run again, not quite (I was hot, tired and grouchy after all) but, my mood did take a positive turn and my family would think the run was epic based on that alone.
With all of this being said, it’s also important to know when to throw in the towel. I can sense a true reason to skip a run as opposed just not feeling like it. If I am sick, injured or just need rest, I have no problem opting out if required. This can be a fine line at times, listen for the little voice behind the inner critic. There is a lot of wisdom there.
Can we be gentle on ourselves while being firm and demanding more?
Can we flick the tough love switch to on without taking the inner critic voices to heart?
Can we do all of this without shaming or ‘shoulding’ on ourselves?
If what you are working towards falls into your ‘feel great, love life’ file, and you have to give yourself a boot to get moving towards it, do it. Use positive mantras, visualize the end result and keep reminding yourself of your ‘why’. I turn to this Ralph Waldo Emerson quote when I need a push.
“The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be.”
Who are you deciding to be?